Morning Frustrations

Looking for a job is one of my least favorite things to do.

I get really stressed when paying the bills. Being a single income household is tough, especially in this economic disaster. We have to budget every week for everything. It's exhausting having to plan every purchase and coordinate every financial move. To try and help me feel less frazzled, I keep trudging through the job listings but so far nothing.

I can't even explain how aggravating it is. I worked for so long to have this damn degree and I feel like it's useless. Especially when this degree was not my first choice! It was a "safe" option to get me a job that would be flexible and take a little pressure off the finances. My long term goal was to have this job and bulk up our savings so I would have more freedom to build up my Etsy shop and do more vintage/antique business with mom-in-law. The fact that three months have gone by with only dead end leads is leaving me very discouraged. So as I'm searching and stressing and budgeting I have to wonder when will it all end?

I think one morning of fruitless job searching is enough for one day. I'm at least grateful that we have money for bills, groceries and something frivolous every now and then. But one of these days I hope that I can catch a break.